One of my friends McCall wrote so beautifully the other day and summed up some of the very things that I was thinking about and going through...here's her words and the words of our friend Paul:
There is no reason for me to say anything when Paul can say exactly how I feel these days: (this is from a new translation, The Voice)
"I know that in me, that is, in my fallen human nature, there is nothing good. I can will myself to do something good, but that doesn't help me carry it out. I can determine that I am going to do good, but I don't do it; instead, I end up living out the evil that I decided not to do...in my mind I am in happy agreement with God's law; but the rest of my body does not concur." [Romans 7:18-19, 22]
I am finding myself frequently exhausted because I cannot will myself to live a sinless life. Praise the Lord it is not up to us.
"Therefore, now no condemnation awaits those who are living in Jesus, the Liberating King, because when you live in him a new law takes effect. The law of the Spirit of life breathes into you and rescues you from the law of sin and death."