Wednesday, May 19, 2010

trust me

 All He asks us to do is trust Him.

About a month ago, a couple came and spoke to us at BCM about their ministry and where the Lord has led them. The night was very encouraging and exactly what I needed to hear at the time...and some things that Becca said are still with me. (Check out their blog; it's amazing stuff: I remember her saying that when the Israelites were following the Lord to the Promised Land, He gave them enough provision for each day. He didn't want them to get so caught up in thinking about their needs that they missed out on what He wanted to show them that day. Have we taken the time to sit back and just think about all that we have to be grateful for today?

I find it very easy to trust God in my speech and then act like I have to make things happen for myself. This is diametrically opposed to Scripture! I am not supposed to be self-sufficient. He knows my needs, and it is He who works all things together for the good of those who love Him. So why do I think I have to make things happen on my own? He is in control. He is sovereign, and He hasn't left me yet.

My friend Stephen sang this at church a couple months ago, and the lyrics touched my heart. I think this is something we all struggle with, and the Lord doesn't want us to struggle with doing what we were created to do--trust Him and love Him!

God, Is It True by Steven Curtis Chapman

God, is it true that you're thinkin' of me at this moment?
God, is it true that you hear every prayer that I pray?
God, is it true every time my heart beats, you know it?
Well, if it's all true, then that must be you I hear saying, "Trust Me."

God, is it true out of all things you're doing on this planet,
Could it really be true that you've counted the hairs on my head?
God, is it true, every day of my life, you have planned it?
Well, if it's all true, then that must be you I hear saying, "Trust Me."

Trust Me, Trust Me
I'll never leave you
I'll never forsake you
Just trust me

God, is it true that your love for us is never ending?
Could it really be true that you'd die before letting us go?
God, is it true that not even death can separate us?
Well, if it's all true, then what can I do but put all my hope and all my trust in you?
Well, I know it's true and I know it's You I hear saying, "Trust Me."
I hear you saying, "Trust Me."

Sunday, May 16, 2010

times, they are a changing...

So on Friday, May 7, as I was headed out to meet my parents and my campus minister/mentor/dad away from home, Franklin, for lunch, I received a call from NTM (New Tribes Mission) representative Tom Brendle. He was calling to offer me congratulations on many levels. Congrats for graduating and also congrats for being approved as an ASSOCIATE with New Tribes Mission to teach missionary kids in Mexico for 2 years!!!

Words cannot describe the joy and happiness within my heart at that moment. To know that a dream that I have been chasing for so many years is finally coming to fruition is frightening, humbling, exciting, and oh so many other crazy emotions. Wow. The Lord is good.

This weekend was full of so many blessings. I turned 22 on Thursday and got to spend the day with both friends and family. I graduated from the College of Education on Friday afternoon and headed home to see my family. So many people have been so generous with graduation gifts, and my parents were so sweet with their birthday and graduation gifts, too.

My Aunt Linda and Uncle Charles came in town from Columbia, SC, as did my cousin (their son) William from Tuscaloosa, AL. I didn't even realize he was coming in town, and his presence was greatly welcomed as comic relief and peacemaker through the weekend. It meant so much to me.

Saturday was almost a perfect day--one of the best I have had in quite some time. We arrived to Athens in plenty of time, and my extended family got to meet Franklin at the BCM. I was surprised by my friends Sara Beth and Nick and his brother Adam, who were upstairs making signs for me and my friends Katie Snell, Katie Underwood, and Dayna. How sweet are they?

Next, my family we walked "across the street" (my dad had to carry a cooler and said that it was "across the street and up a block," which was not good for his back) to the Founder's Memorial Garden, one of my favorite spots on campus, to have a BBQ picnic. Delightful. After enjoying our meal, we packed up the rest of the stuff and saw more friends at the BCM and then headed to the Arch. My parents and other family members decided that they would forgo standing in line to take a picture at the beloved Arch, but William and Lauren decided to wait with me. Katie and I joked around and we made estimates about how long it was going to take. William assured me that we were "going to get this picture" before the day was over. About an hour or so later, we got our picture and rolled out just in time.

I met my beautiful cluster F friends at the bookstore so that we could all walk in and sit together, and all seemed right with the world. I love those girls so much. They have been who I spent the most time with for the past 2 years, and I was so happy to be able to finish college with them. We begun the Early Childhood Education journey together and we were determined to finish together! We took pictures, waited on a few stragglers, and headed into Sanford Stadium, excited to walk on the field and turn our tassels.

The commencement ceremony was great! Christie Haynes, the speaker from our class, was so poised and recounted wonderful and not-so-wonderful memories from the class of 2010. Alton Brown, the Food Network "Good Eats" host, was hilarious. And when Michael Adams conferred the degrees for the College of Education and I saw those fireworks, I was oh so excited. It was truly a wonderful day.
Now on to more adventures! I honestly cannot believe that the Lord has so many crazy things in store, and there is so much to be done is such a short amount of time! I am so grateful for all the Lord has done in my heart in these past four years and for what He is going to continue to do. I honestly get a little overwhelmed when I think about all that I have to do to prepare for Mexico and the tiny little things I'll probably forget that are important. But then the Lord reminds me that it is not me who has to do these things. He has never left me, and He will not leave me now! He is able to infinitely more than I can ask or imagine! All glory be to Him. 

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

thank you, Oswald

I don't even need to add anything to this. I just love Oswald...
My Utmost for His Highest: May 10
Love is an indefinite thing to most of us; we don’t know what we mean
when we talk about love. Love is the loftiest preference of one person
for another, and spiritually Jesus demands that this sovereign
preference be for Himself (see Luke 14:26 ). Initially, when “the love
of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit” ( Romans
5:5 ), it is easy to put Jesus first. But then we must practice the
things mentioned in 2 Peter 1 to see them worked out in our lives.

The first thing God does is forcibly remove any insincerity, pride,
and vanity from my life. And the Holy Spirit reveals to me that God
loved me not because I was lovable, but because it was His nature to
do so. Now He commands me to show the same love to others by saying,
“. . . love one another as I have loved you” ( John 15:12 ). He is
saying, “I will bring a number of people around you whom you cannot
respect, but you must exhibit My love to them, just as I have
exhibited it to you.” This kind of love is not a patronizing love for
the unlovable— it is His love, and it will not be evidenced in us
overnight. Some of us may have tried to force it, but we were soon
tired and frustrated.

“The Lord . . . is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any
should perish . . .” ( 2 Peter 3:9 ). I should look within and
remember how wonderfully He has dealt with me. The knowledge that God
has loved me beyond all limits will compel me to go into the world to
love others in the same way. I may get irritated because I have to
live with an unusually difficult person. But just think how
disagreeable I have been with God! Am I prepared to be identified so
closely with the Lord Jesus that His life and His sweetness will be
continually poured out through Me? Neither natural love nor God’s
divine love will remain and grow in me unless it is nurtured. Love is
spontaneous, but it has to be maintained through discipline.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

C.S. Lewis Song

mmm... Brooke Fraser sure knows how to speak to my heart.
If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan as I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found? On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
'Cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
An avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live, I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming


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